Sunday, July 31
page still hates me, i think. i went out the whole day and didn't care for her properly. just refilled her water and chucked her under my bed heh heh heh. my mother thinks it's hilarious but i insist it's convenient. not that she approves of her sleeping in my room. page is in her cage right now, snoozing on my table. yes the cage takes up more space than my piles of work combined, but i don't care, it's my equivalent of having a dog snuffling around my feet or sitting in my lap. she barely eats. i wonder if she has an eating disorder. let her play downstairs in her ball while we were having dinner. parents have not objected to anything so far. this is amazing. well maybe they pity me because i was so down after losing my phone. or they're just scared i'll get worked up, have a huge headache and cost them a bomb!
do not ever bring a group of 7 year olds to a scary place. the lower sunday school went to labrador park today. i went along to take charge of my class [the primary 1s]. they were more or less fine through tunnel 2. okay i forced them to hold hands and walk in front of me so that i could keep track of them. but at tunnel one it suddenly got colder and darker and there were the simulated sounds of bombs dropping.. and one of the girls freaked out. she clung to my hand, then clung to my waist, and eventually hindered my movement, so i gave up trying to reassure her and just picked her up. she was so scared she was trembling like a rabbit. imagine me carrying a [thankfully small sized] seven year old through dark tunnels with simulated sounds of bombs dropping overhead. wonderful. plus i had to manoeuver the other children around with my legs since i had to wrap both arms around the kid. when we stopped to look at some artifacts, an adult took pity on me and offered to carry her. i got sat on quite a bit as well. and the p3s were so naughty!! defiant and unco-operative. for some reason, when they refused to obey me, i almost blurted out, 'drop ten!' but i remembered they're from the sunday school. heh. horrible children! persuasion does nothing, and they know my threats can only be empty ones.
tempted to poke page, but i'm afraid she'll resent me for waking her up. the cage is colour coordinated blue! blue wheel, semi-blue tunnel thing she sleeps in, porcelain food dish with blue designs, and a blue bottle! yay!! it's so nice to have something of my own to care for and love. i don't care if she resents me now for taking her away from her littermates, she's gonna have to love me someday =D comforting thought eh. jean, having page around has made me happier than i've been since january. =D thank youuuuuu. *huggie huggie*
it must've been love.
7:04 pm
xoxo
